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Everland
m99999 发表于 2006-12-31 22:21:42
抱有梦想,希望和未来的诸位,尽管你们未必会听到......
望今晚有个好梦.Wish each of you a better dream.
原先一度以为撑不下去了......但现在还是想试试把快乐的过家家演到头.
2006的事儿...Let them go.多事的12月终究过了.
明天应该就会回来了...该属于自己的那个形象.
07年会怎样呢......但愿不会闲到想这种问题.
blue
m99999 发表于 2006-12-23 17:09:26
这里是给某位姑娘的留言。
因为是88年的魔羯座，生日也就在这几天。
原本是想将CD集用信封在最近寄到学校去......但这样实在太无聊,而且期末考在即,姑娘时间应该比较紧张.结果还是先征求意见比较好.
因为您不经常上网,我在上周一班会上推荐了这首BLUE,结果恰逢您请假......也没法用邮箱寄去.
BLUE
Never seen a bluer sky
Yeah I can feel it reaching out
and moving closer
There's something 'bout blue
Asked myself what it's all for
You know the funny thing about it
I couldn't answer
No, I couldn't answer
Things have turned a deeper shade of blue
and images that might be real
maybe illusion
Keep flashing off and on
Free...
Wanna be free, Gonna be free...
and move among the stars
You know they really aren't so far
Feels so free...
Gotta know free... Please...
Don't wake me from the dream
It's really everything it seemed
I'm so free...
No black and white in the blue
Everything is clearer now
Life is just a dream, you know
that's never ending
I'm ascending
SHE SAID
Opened her eyes in her quiet, favorite place
There was no one there to break her heart
There was no one there to make her laugh
And she-
She hid the secrets in a closet in her room
Every time she felt sad... dosen't know since when
Sometimes laughing and crying felt the same
Lying and being honest felt the same
But then,she said,"Life is getting better now"
Just said."Life is getting better now"
Told herself 'cause there's always someone to love
...someone to love
She lied because she loved,but no one ever knew
Puzzles inside her heart was always incomplete
In spite of the things she had let go
For the first time,she liked being herself
THE WAY TO THE RIVER
原先是推荐的GREEN BIRD...
但在线连接一直找不到.以后再说罢.
虽然您看到的时候应该已经成年了...还是容我在这里说一句吧.
18岁生日快乐. 希望这些曲子能合您的心情.
祝您做个好梦.
be human
m99999 发表于 2006-12-17 09:18:25
one hundred percentile
no errors, no miss
I synchronize and I specialize and I classify so much
don't worry 'bout dreaming
because I don't sleep
I wish I could at least 30 percent
maybe 50 for pleasure
then skip all the rest
if I only was more human
I would count every single second the rest of my life
if I just could be more human
I'd have so many little babies and maybe a wife
I'd roll around the mud
and have lots of fun
then when I was done
build bubblebath towers and swim in the tub
sand castles on the beach
frolic in the sea
get a broken knee
be scared of the dark and I'd sing out of key
cuss when I lost a fight
kiss and reunite
scratch a spider bite
be happy with wrinkles I got when I smiled
pet kittens til they purred
maybe keep a bird
always keep my word
I'd cry at sad movies
I'd laugh til it hurt
I'd buy a big bike
and ride by the lake
and I'd have lots of friends
and I'd stay out til late
if I could just be more human
I would see every little thing with a gleam in my eye
if only I was more human
I'd embrace every single feeling that came in my life
would I care and be forgiving?
would I be sentimental and would I feel loneliness?
would I doubt and have misgivings?
would I cause someone sorrow, too?
would I know what to do?
will I cry when it's all over?
when I die will I see heaven
很讨厌透过无机质的荧屏说话,所以不用OICQ,不多在BBS上发帖,至少以前是这样没错.
今年突然觉得可能这样也不错,于是开了3年没上的Q,试着说了点话,还抱了点不切实际的希望......当然,事实上不过是自做自梦而已.一只想游上湖面的鱼向上看,却发现自己已经不会游泳.
最近看了雾越邸,突然怀念起以前伤感期时造出来的隐喻:沉在自己无光的房间里.事实上我很喜欢做这类事,关紧门窗,关闭一切光源,看着外边微弱的灯火,边上只有耳机在响.一个静止之处,没有任何的"应该有".
尽管,这样思春期时充满浪漫主义色彩的屋子注定不会象雾越邸般平衡,但为了这种可笑隐喻,我整整三年没有穿过黑色以外的着装,从衣至鞋.现在已成习惯,褪不下了呢.
不过既然屏内屏外我都没法做什么......只好任其这样去罢?谁叫自己无聊兼无能到无药可救.还是将视线投回自己的暗色屋子,这个已经渐渐成型的隐喻.这首曲子不光是自己的现状,我希望它也能标志着花痴期复辟的失败.
顺带一提,这首曲子的词除却想成为母亲那一段大体可算是我想说的...
What＇s I for？
m99999 发表于 2006-12-16 17:57:22
……一个曾经陷入失望的声音,并且到此刻也没有重新找回她所要的希望.但是这并不打紧,对于已经决定活下去的她而言,失去希望不是致命的打击,虽然并非什么也不会带走.在毁灭之前的一刻,仍旧生存着,同时等待.
而另一个是没有希望的男性.没有记忆,没有身份,也几乎没有情感.只是没有目的地在走,在空无一物的荒原上走.沉溺在药物实验带来的幻象里,盯着周围不断扑着翅膀,同时支离破碎的闪光着的蝶.这是他伴随着失去自我而来的,所见过最美的麻醉剂.Vincent一直沉浸在这个梦里,明知是不现实的幻景,却直到死前都不去睁开眼睛看看现实.背景如齿轮转动的机械感,正是对他的行走翔实的写照.
我不知道自己的描述会给人带来什么感觉.这两首曲子应该都不属于悲哀的情感范畴,一边是略带失望地等待,一边是漫无目的的行走.同为菅野的作品,它们都更象是不带激动的诉说.没有多余的情感.
情感,对于失去希望又能不介怀者而言,不是一种会有太大波动的属性.生存没有意义不打紧,无力改变什么也不打紧.她唱到:＂即便只能在沙漠里浇灌一片绿叶.＂我想,不能也应该无所谓.
基诺之旅卷七扉页注着:＂活下去 是一种悲哀 活着本身却不是.＂活着有无必要一定往下呢.为了既定目标而活着的人,也可以选择着眼于生活本身.没有人可以证明活着需要更多理由,可能这一个已足够了罢.
……活着本身在人心里有着不同的定义.如果仅止于对生存的定义,失去希望,失去意义,不会有任何一棵树因此失去叶片,也不会有任何一片天幕改变自己的或蓝或白或黑.对于＂生存的真实＂这一类名词,无论是怀疑或者盲目肯定,生存状态都是不会改变的呢.纯客观角度的真实性永远只能是一个不能证明或否决的假说,因为生存的人永远无法处于生存以外的立场上.
即便是早已死去只有意识的梦境又有何不妥?还是可以嗅到空气的气息,还是可以在雨天泡杯热茶,远远注视着奔流的人群.实在不想怀疑所谓的意义和那些既有的定义.可能它和活着的目标一样无关紧要,也可能所有这些字符不过是一个懦弱者逃避现实的借口而已.至少我想这最后一个问题的答案,对于自己并不重要.Vincent的美景其实未必如正常人所想一般可悲.忘却那些＂应该有＂的想法和想象,眼里直接看到的幸福,难道会让人难以接受么.
What＇s I for…? 你会写下什么答案呢.
同样,此曲赠予一位姑娘.
WHAT'S IT FOR?
作曲:菅野よう子
编曲:菅野よう子
作词:tim jensen
演唱:emily curtis
i'm not too sure that i can go much farther
i'm really not sure things are even getting better
i'm so tired of the me that has to disagree
and so tired of the me that's in control
i woke up to see the sun shining all around me
how could it shine down on me?
you'd think that it would notice
i can't take anymore
i had to ask myself,
"what's it really for?"
everything i tried to do, it didn't matter
and now i might be better off just rolling over
cause you know i tried so har but couldn't change a thing
and it hurts so much i might as well let go
i can't really take the sun shining all around me
why would it shine down on me?
you'd think that it would notice
i no longer believe
can't help tellin' myself,
"it don't mean a thing"
i woke up to see the sun shining all around me
how could it shine on me?
sun shining all it's beauty
why would it shine down on me
you'd think that it would notice
i can't take anymore
just had to ask myself
"what's it really for?"
Blues in my heaven
m99999 发表于 2006-12-10 10:19:58
Blues in my heaven
All in her hands
Buried so deep down
Light can't even reach
Are they still caught inside?
All they wanted is to be alive
Blues under heaven
Without a doubt
Counting all the regrets won't help you smile again
You have to find a way
A way to feel alive
Tell me why things have changed
Tell me why I can't let go
Try to look above,then you might see the sun
Try to reach my hand,then you might feel the warmth
Spread out the wings I didn't even have
I called out your name,nothing is stopping me
There were things I never even tried to understand
All the things she said I never really listened to
Heart starts to beat again
Tell me why,tell me how
Tell me what to do
Tell me where to go
Tell me please,tell me now
ell me what is true
Tell me what I should believe
I'm trying so hard not to let go
Blues in my heaven
Can someone hear my voice?
从绝望之底往上看，还是就这样沉下去？......
最近一连串的事儿还真想让人沉会儿......不光荷包变空精神水平也下降至少三级......
荷包好办,少订几本台版书就成......
精神问题就难了了,虽然写这段时已经正常不少.
请注意曲子并尽量无视以上内容,和曲子没什么关系.
天还是很冷的......
m99999 发表于 2006-12-10 09:20:30
3个月没练管子竟然生锈了......铜管也不能放着不理哪......
天已经不是一两点冷了......昨儿个晚上整了点小酒出去走了两圈,回来已经抖得不成人型......冬天果然做不得这类悠闲散步的活动.回来练了会管子,第一个音竟然没吹响.
想想不过3个月而已......有些事儿真是不留情面,该过的时候一点也不含糊.高三竟然快过一半了,迷迷糊糊混着还真是一点感觉都没有.大概习惯了吧,这样的日子.总还想过慢一点......除了学校什么都不用想,至少基本不用为SAXPHONE锈掉而苦恼.不知觉,天已经变冷了.而且明年夏天,基本也不会有工夫享受炎热带来的悠闲......暑假一来,时间只会过得更快.
......不过是一个懒人在自言自语而已.老实说即便是高三,还是希望能过得慢一些......习惯的话生活也没什么不妥,不去怀念过去的就成了,尽管还是难以做到......至少当初花去练习的时间,要让它白费实在可惜了.既然始终要走出林子,现在做点儿无谓的希望也没大碍吧.实在不想有那么多事要烦.
人说时间如流水,可惜鄙人不会游泳,也不喜欢. ......今年的夏天希望能晚点,至少不用看着人们在清凉河水里嬉闹,自己只能在岸边一遍遍自我暗示心静自然凉.
话虽如此......夏天到了,泡杯小茶,吹首小曲,看会小说,玩会游戏,上会网搜几首曲子......应该也不错. 一杯清凉的夏尔玛茶,一如夏日明朗阳光呢.要开始的话,也没什么不好.冬天是泡不了这种果茶的,冬天容纳不下清凉.天已经很冷了.
虫师
m99999 发表于 2006-12-08 17:35:03
大友克洋监督,值得一看是真的......
但银古怎么看怎么别扭......
TV版虫师OP SINGLE OST
这是本月的推荐.
一部相当淡雅绚丽的动画,清淡深远.
TV版几近完美地再现了原画师漆原友纪油画般绚烂的笔调,没有任何多余的成分.
美到一定水平了.漫画也相当不错,近年少见的珍品.
下边是T V版主题曲.片头是很搭调的模糊绿意呢.
Komm,susser Tod
m99999 发表于 2006-12-08 16:56:31
暂做主题.
Neon Genesis Evangelion
(新世纪福音战士)剧场版插曲
歌詞:
歌：ARIANNE
作词:庵野秀明（日文）
作曲:鹭巢诗郎
编曲:鹭巢诗郎
I know,I know I've let you down
I've been a fool to myself
I thought that I could
live for no one else
But now through all the hurt and pain
It's time for me to respect
the ones you love
mean more than anything
So with sadness in my heart
(I) feel the best thing I could do
is end it all
and leave forever
what's done is done it feels so bad
what once was happy now is sad
I'll never love again
my world is ending
★I wish that I could turn back time
cos now the guilt is all mine
can't live without
the trust from those you love
I know we can't forget the past
you can't forget love&pride
because of that,it's kill in me inside
☆It all returns to nothing,it all comes
tumbling down,tumbling down,tumbling down
It all returns to nothing,I just keep
letting me down,letting me down,letting me down
In my heart of hearts
I know that I called never love again
I've lost everything
everything
everything that matters to me,matters
in this world
★Repeat
☆Repeat 2 times
先引一篇评论.最近会有自己的评论.
新浪BLOG GHOST的BLOG
这家伙估计是攻壳迷......
EVA剧场版里全人类灵魂融合时的音乐
Sweet death~
来吧，甜美的死亡
从我的角度和剧场版的内容来看,曲子里包含着浓郁的无可奈何,绝望时的选择.
无论逃避与否......终将迎来的同一终点......
悲哀 恐惧 痛苦 坦然 结果都是一样的.
只是没有形体和伤害,自己也就没有了哪......
我不喜欢这种融合,而真治应该也是.所以曲子响起的时刻--
也是真治完全崩溃的时刻. 是无可奈何呢......
某种程度上讲,这些词对于我也算合理的描述呢...
